So, she invites me over

I think I realize that what I thought marriage would be isn't what it actually is or will be- could be. Or maybe this is all depending on the person that you're married too.

I don't know if I want to be married. I think it partially my realization is that it's just too difficult and the other is that I don't want to be this exhausted while in a marriage- but maybe that's a feeling that comes up no matter who you marry.

My only goal is to have the healthiest marriage as superbly possible.

I know all couples go through a rough patch- is this a rough patch. If Tha is a patch...