We just had ---. She was beautiful. She moves my heart and commands my sight. I'm thankful for her presence. I'm still awe struck by her just as the museum.

There's nothing like a dark family secrets coming to the light- this is my first real conversation. Dark shame. I need MORE therapy. I need Janine.

In tears of Joy. FFL is done. Registered, encoded, etc. FUCK YES!!! No sleep and the stress paid off. Enjoying this moment. I'm so capable. Thx God.

God, I love her.

I just saw the cutest little wandering dog and I wanted to save it. Katrina would have told me my safety is more important. I'm crying. Awww. I miss Jack.

B if Blue and Blue is for Thom

Hey Thom, I know I should be sleeping but... I saw thing and thought of you. I'm going to buy it in your honor. I saw it and started crying. I'm still crying. I'd rather post here than on Facebook. I miss you, Sir. I hope you're in peace.


-Me

I wonder what she thinks when she looks at other.......

I just had a HUGE career realization. I don't like working in film, especially at any level lower than Producing/non-crew work. Music Mgmt. is totally ME.

Do I TRUST? Do I BELIEVE? Insecure... The waves of this sea seems to be so up & down. Stroke my EGO. Keep me in the DEN. I'm male & female Lion. -LEO

Who? (wrote on Monday, published on Wednesday)

I think it's Cocoon time. Time to be selfish and focus solely on myself. Things are about to get REAL interesting. I have no time for attitudes and anyone that's less than supportive. I try entirely too hard to meet the needs of other people. Shit, who has my back? Who's celebrating with me when I have successful moments or if I've accomplished something wonderful for my company? Who.....Exactly! Sorry, I don't come from a family that everyone owns there own business, makes, not even a five figure salary, so when something great happens I become excited. I don't take for granted those moments. I don't shrug them off as if to say 'oh. It's supposed to be that way. What are you happy/celebrating for'.

The funny thing is, I wrote this blog, minus the very last three sentences on Monday. I still feel the same and it's Wednesday. I work hard and I don't need anyone around me that's going to make lite of, disregard me and shit on my efforts. I will be successful even if I have to be alone. I don't want to be but it's just that real to me.

I'm over teaching. PAY THE FUCK ATTENTION. It's just that simple. Well, I gotta get back to work. I have a vacation to Jamaica to work towards.