Well

Well, I'm back! I'm back on yet another day of frustration. 

I'm a massochist. Being in love with someone that is shut down and then realizes it and acknowledges it to ither people and then they tell e and you haven't said anything to me about it feels unappreciative, emotionally irresponsible, and disrespectful.  It's like not helping you spouse Selam the house but you go somewhere else and cleans someone else's house but leave your house dirty and not help your spouse. 

The spouse will only take so much. 

I've taken enough. 

I'm backed up. That is my problem.